[InclinedPlane]

If you have health insurance, definitely try to get some treatment. Pills and therapists aren't perfect, and they aren't for everyone, but they can work. And they can be kept secret. Beyond that, look at acquiring skills and habits to be able to manage your depression, drugs will only give you the opportunity to build those skills easier, they won't make everything magically better forever. I'd highly suggest looking at cognitive behavioral therapy (basically developing habits and patterns that are healthier) and meditation/mindfulness, they are amazingly effective in a lot of cases.