[JabavuAdams]

Please try again. What have you got to lose?

I've had episodes in my life where I felt so trapped or constrained or ashamed that I thought about ending it.

I'm really glad I didn't. My thought process was broken. I would have devastated my loved-ones, and thrown away my life for deadlines / issues that no one cared about that much.

I have friends who have survived major depression and are mostly happy now.

There's hope!