[brazzledazzle]

>Oh yeah, being interested in one thing one day and completely hating it the next day makes it hard to really plan for any long term goals when you're not sure what you'll even want to do tomorrow, in a few hours, next week, next month.

The older I get the more this taxes me. Not because I have more responsibility, but because the aggregate of my failures grows larger with each passing year. I can only imagine how someone in my position who also suffers from chronic depression must feel.

>It's like your head is disconnected from your body and you're watching a bored teenager live your life for you.

Exactly this. Said better than I ever could.

>I feel worse for the people around me sometimes than I do for myself because I still have a hard time admitting I have ADHD and not that I'm just lazy and don't want to do anything. That's the true nightmare.

Even when you come to terms with it this is the hardest part. Even if you confide in them it doesn't help because rare is the person that believes it's real or can even empathize enough to properly determine if they do or not.

I thought I'd be mad at those I confided in that didn't believe in me but I'm not. If anything I feel worse for them because before they just thought I didn't care enough or was lazy but after they basically have a confirmation that you're so lazy or selfish that you got a doctor to sign off on a free pass. Which is funny because a free pass is the last thing you need. Even when you explain it they rarely seem to understand that you need to be held more accountable than a normal person.