| I couldn't agree with you more. The self-deception is that part that I haven't figured out. I can't put my finger on what's really going on there, because I am brutally honest with myself. At the end of the day I know why I'm doing what I'm doing. Are they delusional without being aware of it? Do they deep down know they're full of shit? Are they hurting inside because they can sense they're full of shit but justify it to themselves that it's 'helping others' and all that? It's like those fundamentalist religious folks who talk shit about gay people and then get caught with gay sex workers. Are people who seem goofy all like that? They know they're broken but can't help but keep the charade going or is there something else going on? I can understand why a dude who's been a pastor his whole life has trouble letting go. That's where I imagine people who got rich off of being full of shit at some point go 'ok I'm done'. Kind of how Bill Gates quit Microsoft and let his wife run his life, because she's not a piece of shit like he is. He had the self-awareness. Trump seems to still be playing the game. Is it just raging ego-maniacs when they're rich? They just love the bizarre ego tripping they're involved in? I honestly can't fathom what goes on in there. |