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When I first started programming, I fell in love. Over a period of roughly 3 months, I maintained what can only be described as a productive mania. I had a very positive mood, elevated energy levels, intrinsic motivation, and an overwhelming, driving, sense of happiness. I would spend hours, and hours, pouring over documentation, absorbing everything I could. I applied what I learned in projects that were relevant to me. Every day I was EXCITED to wake up, and learn more. That was 5 years ago, and I still look back on that time and wonder HOW? HOW did my own body, naturally, without drugs, go into a state of HYPER productivity and HYPER positive mood? Is it not possible to induce that state again somehow? If I was capable of it once, why can't I control it? |
It's like hyper vigilance but all I see is the computer, it's awesome (probably unhealthy), but I can't turn it on and off. There are triggers that usually work though.
If I stay up playing past 10pm it almost always turns on, and all of a sudden it's 4am and I've got standup in a couple hours, but I got a shit load completed.
I used to be able to take a lot of uppers, like smoking and drinking too much coffee/red bull, and that would stretch it out, but I can't do that anymore because I want to live past 40.
So now I get the effects over shorter periods of time, and really only when I stay up late.
I also find that when I'm really exhausted from lack of sleep, it actually kicks in faster, but when I do that, I just end up sleeping all weekend because I invariably end up working on something until 4am every day.
I'm still trying to figure out how to attain that extreme level of focus at will but it feels like it would require me to stop focusing on computers/electronics to try to figure it out, and that simply won't do.