[kafkaesq]

Take a step back, man. This is a very dark, negative path you're contemplating. It doesn't make you a bad person to have these kinds of thoughts (it's part of our neurobiology, basically). But please don't act on them.

Rather, accept the fact that you're basically being blackballed (look up the term if you're not familiar with it), and that these are the preliminary signs that you're about to be fired.

Whether you deserve it (or even partially deserve it) or not doesn't matter (very much) at this stage. These things happen. What does matter is that you accept the rejection gracefully rather than look for ways to fight against it. Which (if they're of the form you're contemplating) might very well backfire.