[RamshackleJ]

Building bridges != being a loyal employee.

Pull your weight and support the people around you but don't grovel to your company! You're a free-thinking human being with value creating skills!

Masking how you feel and trying to work the system will only lead to regret. Find out who you are and what your principles are and stand by them, only then will you be able to live with yourself when you get old.

Also work can happen outside of the bounds of a company. Your post makes you sound really burned out, I hope you're doing ok = )