[Ellahn]

I get the impression you are learning, if you're not, I suggest you think again, because actually you are. :D

Programming is much about learning and it never gets easy when you need to pick something new. I suggest you find a mentor if you don't like experimenting alone, somebody who can give you some guidance.

After you learn something, it gets easier, and very rewarding.

On the subject of "not having what it takes", I disagree. Find a friend who draws, sings, plays an instrument or whatever, and ask them to tell you how much effort they had to put to learn their craft.

"Computers" are probably a lot easier, at least in comparison, since you have to use them anyways.