[amatxn]

I look daily, I've had several interviews over the years but nothing has worked out. I share custody of my 8 yr old daughter and live in a somewhat isolated area of the US that has very few development jobs (like 5 employers, most of them undesirable). I've made the decision to stay here until she is older. I've looked for remote jobs but that can be intimidating, most are looking for that 'rockstar' developer. I'm just in a bad place, I'm highly educated (bs, ms,Mba) and feel like that was just wasted.

[guepe]

How about _trying_ a remote job - being intimidated means you don't _think_ you are fit for such job, on the other hand it's your own perception. If you are depressed, believe me your perception is strongly biased negatively ;-)

I know nothing about you, but your comment hit me. For some reason I write this - I hope it won't hurt you in any way.

[amatxn]

Thanks - I did not the advice negatively. I've gone down that route and plan to pursue in the future. A lot of it is perception that I'm not good enough.

[thehoff]

I assume this means that there are no options with your current employer?

Don't want to assume but a number of years ago with my current employer I started out doing work that was seemed interesting but a year or so in it started to get old real fast (also lots of education). I too started to get somewhat depressed and felt like I was 'rotting'.

So I started doing some projects on the side that started to have some real impacts over the next year. This eventually started to get some attention (the good kind) which lead to other things which eventually led to what I do now which I really enjoy doing. I'm at my same employer, same boss but through letting her know what I wanted and my side-projects I was able to parlay that into something more interesting.

(I realize that this may not work for all employers.)

[amatxn]

I've approached my boss several times about this, and any changes are temporary - it's a management issue (same management at both places). I have a need to be on high profile high performing projects (I've lead development on the last several at our company) but then there are low activity periods where management does not provide direction. I can work on my own but it's hard to gain traction (technology company that's doesn't understand technology).

[rhizome]

technology company that's doesn't understand technology

I love this, though. Coming up with something technical that makes sense to these people is a hugely beneficial skill.

[amatxn]

They would also expect it for dirt cheap or free :(

[amatxn]

Company is very small ~10 people, 4 devs. I manage several of the projects and resources.

[gutnor]

Develop some app to have fun with your daughter, you are the right person in the right place with right job to do it.

[sn]

amatxn, no promises but let's talk. More info is in my profile.

[amatxn]

@sn - no direct contact info on the profile other than co-founder info, don't want to be too stalker-ish in finding you :)