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i think i missed some opportunity :) yeah NL would be perfect if i have that chance and thanks. i've other problems with my wife, just want to mention about them in here, there are really personal stuff and i want to keep them in husband-wife privacy. and im trying plan how to explain myself clearly to my wife. i don't want to leave her with tons of questions in her head. just i need to find most peaceful way i can.