[hauget]

I program for money, often hating it, because I'm relatively competent at it, and then I program for fun because I love it

I'm in the same boat!

I increasingly believe I may have an attention deficit disorder on top of diagnosed depression I'm dealing with

Have you tried exercising, getting enough sleep, eating healthier, doing more "outside" or social activities and/or testing out nootropics like citicoline/noopept? All of these have helped me greatly! BTW, highly recommend checking out The Healthy Programmer book: https://pragprog.com/book/jkthp/the-healthy-programmer

life sometimes deals shitty cards

Virtual manly hug mate!

[TeMPOraL]

> Have you tried exercising, getting enough sleep, eating healthier, doing more "outside" or social activities and/or testing out nootropics like citicoline/noopept?

Oh, the usual stuff ;). Tried all of these at various points; haven't noticed much difference, but I think I might not have tried enough. Going item-by-item:

- Exercising: probably not enough; the amounts I did didn't really affect much (except weight), but I'm going to try again, at a gym this time.

- I have problems going to sleeping due to depression and anxiety (I constantly feel I haven't done enough yet, so I can't go to sleep yet), combined with being generally a night person (after day spent with people I really appreciate the late hours without any face-to-face distractions). But when I finally fall asleep, no force on Earth or in Heaven can wake me before I get my 7-8 hours. Which annoys my employers.

- I try, but I just don't like green food :(. Cutting out sugar from diet did wonders to my weight and dental health, but didn't improve mood issues.

- I'm a very social person, people call bullshit on me when they hear me describing myself as an introvert (I usually send them this classic then: [0]). I frequent various events, both as an attendee and speaker, help run a local Hackerspace and have uncanny ability to serve as a translator between technical and untechnical people.

- Piractem & noopept - little to no noticeable effects. Nicotine (pure, in gums, I'm not a smoker) - helps stay up a little longer and improves my alcohol tolerance. Adrafinil - does wonders when I need to skip a night's sleep or feel the stress-induced tiredness during the day. I didn't try anything else.

> BTW, highly recommend checking out The Healthy Programmer book

Thanks, I'll check it out! I highly respect the Pragmatic Bookshelf for Pragmatic Programmer and Pragmatic Thinking and Learning. The book you linked is one hell of an expense, but if it could help, then I guess it may be worth it.

> Virtual manly hug mate!

* hug *

#HNTherapy

[0] - http://imgur.com/76HUN

[sharemywin]

I read a trick about writing everything down you need to get done so you don't get that feeling at night your going to forget to do something in the morning. helps sometimes.

[TeMPOraL]

It works.

The feeling I have is more of a "I've done so little today and there's still so much to do, I can't go to sleep yet".