[chfarmychainsaw]

Get your shit together first. Get a job, any job to rebuild your confidence. Lack of enthusiasm or bringing emotional shit to work are ways to get fired, so leave that at the door and bring a solid attitude. These jobs are practice jobs to get back in the groove, so be on the look out for promotions and better gigs. (Just don't burn any bridges because it's a small world and that next seemingly "better" job might not be better.)

Then, save up a little coin and get a reasonably economical van, crash on a friend's couch or do whatever it takes to get back in the valley because going outside leads to lost income and fewer opportunities. Follow your passion and find a way to make a decent living at it. If you really want to do technical work at a nonprofit in a certain area, by all means, do that.

Renting, consumerism and ostentatious living like eating out all the time, going for coffee and activities like that are what will bleed you dry and keep you balance-sheet poor. Live cheap and don't be brow-beaten by the fools trying to rationalize their own indebtedness by mocking others that actually have an exit plan.

Good luck, never give up.