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Mania is not something you want to experience daily, or on a routine basis. It is not fun. It is _powerful_. It is being absolutely certain of everything you are, everything you think, everything you know. It is knowing that everything you do is right, and everyone else is wrong. It's having a sex drive turned to a thousand. It's feeling paranoid eventually. Yes, there is increased productivity, but the cost is a lot higher than you expect. The messed up thing is you crave it when you lose it - because the certainty is really super addictive. What I think you're actually referring to is not mania or hypomania - it's called hyperthymia. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hyperthymic_temperament It's similar in some ways to hypomania, but different in others. For one last point of reference, here's a hypomanic episode for me: Everything in the world is great.
Everything in the world is really great.
Productivity for a day or two
Holy shit, I'm so smart, everyone else is less smart than me!
Productivity that is more random
Oh my god, I can't believe how smart I am and how pathetic the rest of these people are.
Productivity is super random, starting to be unproductive
The most logical conclusion is that I'm probably god, like, I really do believe that, that seems very logical right now.
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